Stirrings...

There has been SO MUCH happening in the last few months and I simply have not had time to write about it...I do like posting about it because it's a great way to share thoughts and feelings (and my commenters are such a great support!) and it's a nice way to look back and see how things have changed or not changed, etc...

I don't know if I ever updated on the situation with our "little one". This is the little foster girl we had for several months and then custody was given back to her mom. Well, I can't share too much about her particular situation but she is back in foster care, only this time she is in another province so Chris and I have not been able to get her back (yet!). We have been talking to people who may be able to help us as we really feel strongly in our hearts that she belongs with our family if she is not able to be with her mom. I know the little one felt at home here and didn't want to leave. Right now, there are just lots of prayers and phone calls being made about this situation. Honestly, we are so limited in what we are "allowed" to do in her case but yet, I still feel we need to do whatever we can for her.

I didn't update on the situation of my loved one in Toronto either...it is a very personal story and I haven't felt like I had the right words to share it yet...it's coming though.

And now...here we are approaching Christmas. This is the first Christmas in 4 years where I have actually been peaceful and excited about the season. 4 years ago, we had just received our referral for Alyssa and I didn't care TWO HOOTS about Christmas....all I wanted was to get to my sweet girl! The next two years were okay but my heart was very heavy because I wanted to adopt again so badly but Chris did not. Last Christmas we were back into the whole emotional rollercoaster of adoption and Christmas was the last thing on my mind. So, back to this year...even though there are some unanswered questions, I still feel very good about being here with Evan, Alyssa, Caleb and Dylan and sharing the excitement of Christmas with them. We may even have Nathan with us again this year (our 19 year old foster son) although he is going to visit his dad for a bit and not sure when he's coming back.

I've also realized that I will probably NEVER be fully content with not adopting again. The other day Chris and I were talking and he said "I think I'd like another little girl from China" and all I said was "I'm ON IT!!". Like in an instant, I was ready to start again!! Am I insane? I just can't help it...adoption has changed my heart so radically I don't think I will ever be able to live the same again. I am mostly trying to leave it in God's hands...I say "trying" because I'm a control freak and it's really hard to not try to control my own life :-) It took 6 years for God and I :-) to change Chris' heart about adopting the first time. The 2nd time it took 3 years...so, I'm thinking if the pattern stays the same we should be adopting again in 1.5 years???? Right?! But, like I said, I'm leaving it up to God! :-)

My husband would have a heart attack if he read this so hopefully he won't catch up with the blog for awhile and he'll miss this post!

Well...the kids have their Christmas concert tomorrow so hopefully I can post precious pictures of the terrific kids I DO have!!

Merry Christmas!

Phew...let's take a breather!

Life has been an absolute whirlwind these last 2 weeks! I started my new job and have been training every day. I'm not used to working full time outside the home and it's been a huge adjustment with all the crazies, I mean kids, to take care of at home! This week will be my last official week of training and then I go back to only 3 days a week. That will be a much more manageable schedule for all of us!

Alyssa and Evan also started at a new babysitter's so that was an adjustment, although I have to say they are really enjoying it! It definitely helps that they have each other and they seem to be two peas in a pod! I can't believe the difference in how they interact together...honestly, in the summer Alyssa was just so distressed about Evan and all the attention she perceived he was getting and she wasn't (of course this was her perception, not reality). Now, they spend hours together every day playing, coloring, doing crafts, etc... What I find really cute is Evan will play barbies with Alyssa and then next time I check Alyssa will be playing soccer with Evan or trying out the gamecube (which she NEVER did before Evan came home).

The other day we were driving in the van and I overheard Alyssa say "Evan, isn't it good that there are 2 of us from China in our family!"...oh, I love that they share a connection!

Dylan had a hockey tournament this weekend (I totally forgot the camera!!) and it was crazy busy! He had 5 games and they took 2nd place overall. I LOVE to watch Dylan play hockey but I'm so competitive that it actually stresses me out a bit :-) I'm also coaching Caleb's basketball team so this has added to our crazy schedule. His b'ball team is for boys ages 10-11 and there are 18 of them! They are an amazing group of boys! Dylan just joined the team as well but he has never played b'ball before so he's having fun learning the game.

There's been so much I've wanted to post about but just haven't had the time to sit down at the computer and think clearly. Even now it's 10:00 pm and I'm frantically typing so I can get to bed (early work morning). Maybe in the next few days, I'll get a chance to write some of what's going on inside this complex brain of mine...ha ha ha...

Can anyone out there really believe Christmas is only 25 days away? Like, really, how did that happen!!??

Home Sweet Home

well, we all got home on Monday and Evan is doing fabulous! He started coming around on Monday and by Tuesday he was back to himself. So far, so good! We've even noticed a difference already in his speech...clear sounds instead of nasally.

I started the new job...I think I'm really going to enjoy it. Finished the "bookwork" training part and now I get to job shadow for 2 weeks...so anyone who has been thinking of giving blood or plasma, give us a call and you can come in and visit us!!! (1-888-2-DONATE)

We're working on an amazing website and our plan is to "launch" it by the end of November in honor of National Adoption Month. It will focus on all adoption related issues, book resources, support groups and events happening in PEI (related to adoption or cultural activities for our children), and lots more. The focus of the website will be on adoption in general, not just international. We will include whatever we can on domestic, private and international. Stay tuned...I'll post the link when it's ready to be seen by the world! :-)

THANK YOU for all your kind, wonderful emails, phone calls and comments during Evan's surgery. He is such an incredible little guy! For any and all of you who read my blog...I truly encourage you to consider the waiting child program! Not only in China but in any country...there are so many amazing, healthy children available through these programs and each and every one deserves the love of a family.

Okay...enough of the lecture...enjoy your night!!!

Oh Bummer!

Darn it all...we are back in the hospital with Evan. We were discharged yesterday afternoon but we decided to stay in halifax to see how Evan would do before we made the 4 hour drive back to PEI. Evan was so sick all night...he wouldn't/couldn't drink anything and he kept throwing up. He was still doing that this morning so we brought him back to IWK and they said we should stay here again for the night and get some fluids (via IV) into him.

It is now 9:00 pm and he is so much better!!! He is much less cranky (praise the Lord!!!) and has been eating lots of squishy foods (soup, pudding, ice cream....). I'm sure we'll be able to leave tomorrow morning and head back to PEI.

Evan's lips are back to normal and now we can see inside his mouth to see the hole (or that there isn't a hole anymore). It all looks really good.

On another note...I start a new job this week - my training starts on Wednesday so hopefully all will be well with Evan by then. I will be working with Canadian Blood Services and I'm really excited to be working for them and to have steady (but part-time!) employment. I'll be working 3 days a week which should be perfect as it still leaves me days off with Evan and Alyssa and time to get all the other household stuff/errands done!

Also.... A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DAD - he turns 60 today!!! I wish we could have all gone down to Digby, NS to celebrate with him but we aren't able. Dad and mom did come to visit Evan and us yesterday in the hospital so it was very nice to see them!!

Hopefully next time I update, we'll all be home in PEI!!

Thanks again for your well wishes and prayers!

He's done!

Evan all set to head to the OR

Mommy and Evan getting ready for the OR...I went in when they put Evan to sleep

Evan back up in his room after surgery...

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Evan is through surgery and is doing well. He looked worse than we expected when we saw him in Recovery but he looks much better now. His lips are really swollen and lots of blood in his teeth, etc... Evan was so cute when he woke up because he was so proud that his hole was finally closed that he began tapping me and trying to open his mouth to show me his hole was gone.

He also had 4 teeth removed (2 that were "useless teeth" stuck up in his clefts in his gum and 2 rotten ones in the back. He also had several capped with silver and now he looks like a pirate :-)

His brother, Caleb told him he would get $10 from the toothfairy for losing all those teeth so he keeps asking for his ten dollars.

The surgeon said Evan's palate closure went really well...we have tried to see it but it's pretty swollen right now so we can't see too much. The surgeon also extended his soft palate in the back as well...all of this will really help with his speech, too.

Evan had a difficult time last night as he was continually throwing up yet he still insisted on playing his gamecube. He is hooked up to IV so he can't really play and when I looked over at him, he was just kind of laying there looking at the screen but not playing. Too tired and groggy...I guess just knowing it was there was comforting to him :-)

Thank you for all your nice comments and prayers!!!!

If Evan starts to drink on his own we may be able to break free of the hospital!

More later....

We're at the hospital

Hi,
Just a quick note that we are at the hospital. Evan has been in surgery for a little over 3 hours and it should be only another hour or so. He is also having dental surgery as well as cleft palate surgery.

We are in his room getting everything set up and ready...of course I couldn't go without the computer so Chris has set it up for me!!! We did up Evan's hospital bed with his favorite spiderman blanket, his pillow and some stuffed animals. We bought him a HUGE Diego helium balloon and he is going to love it. A very sweet little girl in the next room is going home today and she gave us a HUGE Dora balloon as well so we have those hanging over his bed for when he comes up from recovery.

Will update more later tonight...

Tammy

3 more sleeps!

I forgot to mention....November is National Adoption Month and our PEI Adoption Coalition initiated media exposure to bring awareness and share in celebrating our Island families who have adopted or been adopted (domestically and internationally). The first set of stories will be featured in The Guardian on Saturday. Don't forget to pick up a copy!

First off... if Bethany Dobbertin is reading this, please send me your email! I'd love to chat with you about our children and find out if they are from the same orphanage!! My email is tammymackinnon@pei.sympatico.ca.

We are down to 3 sleeps until Evan's surgery...he is having his fistula closed (hole in his palate) and dental surgery. I'm not sure how many teeth they are removing - I think about 4 or 5. We are taking Alyssa with us and Caleb and Dylan will be staying with a few different families but they are very excited about all the sleepovers with their friends/cousins!!

Evan is very excited about having his "hole closed" (as he says). He's happy to know I will be sleeping in the room with him and Alyssa will be there to play games with us. We are taking his beloved Gamecube so he and daddy can play MarioCart!

I had a great time meeting some amazing, wonderful families at the Adoption Training Conference this weekend. There were so many moving adoption stories...I love hearing them!

I can't believe we are down to 44 days until Christmas and 90 days until Evan's "happy birthday". (he always calls it that) For some reason, Evan LOVES to countdown for events. We counted down Alyssa and Dylan's birthdays, Halloween, his surgery, still counting for Christmas, Caleb's birthday and of course, his birthday. Any time I mention something we are going to be doing, he says "how many is that?"

Still...can you believe Christmas is only 44 days away!!!!!! My friend Carolyn talked about this on her blog and I thought I would check back and see what was happening...she went back one year on her blog to see what was going on in her life...I went back one year ago and it's hiliraous to see how much things have changed and what God has done in our lives...this is what I wrote ONE YEAR AGO...

Our file is being translated RIGHT NOW!

Kids Link emailed me to let me know our file was sent to Ottawa 2 days ago to be translated, legalized and authenticated! We are so thrilled!!! Let's pray for a very quick turn around in Ottawa and then it can finally head to Ethiopia!!!

Waiting very anxiously for our sweet girl!

Isn't that weird??? Yup! One year ago we were submitting our dossier for a little girl from Ethiopia!! Now, one year later, we are home with our sweet BOY from China and he is so amazing! I would never have guessed one year ago that this is where God would lead us or what he had prepared for us!!!!

Please say a prayer for sweet Evan as he goes in for his surgery.

~Tammy