Can we really just sit by????

"Sometimes I'd like to ask God why He allows poverty, famine and injustice when He could do something about it...but I'm afraid He might ask me the same question." ~ Anonymous

"We are the first generation that can look extreme and stupid poverty in the eye, look across to Africa and elsewhere, and say this and mean it: we have the cash, we have the drugs and we have the science - but do we have the will? Do we have the will to make poverty history? Some say we can't afford to. I say we can't afford not to." - Bono

"Because where your treasure is, there will your heart be also."

~ Matthew 6:21 ~

What to say?

No news...nothing much to write. I'm still feeling way down in the dumps but it is refreshing to see actual sunshine. Life is just so weird sometimes.

Anyway...one year ago today we were in China waiting to see if we would get to meet Evan. All the other families received their children on this day but we had to wait because our paperwork wasn't ready. Our actual "gotcha day" anniversary is tomorrow. I seriously can't believe a whole year has gone by since that little tornado joined our family! More pics and updates on him tomorrow to celebrate one year!

There has been TONS of exciting adoption news on PEI lately...we've had a family return home recently with their little one from China, there is a family in China right now, we had 2 families receive referrals from China in the last couple of weeks, we have another family waiting to hear about a referral any day (from China) and we've had a couple of families return from Ethiopia with their new children. That's a lot of happy mommies and daddies!!!

More tomorrow....

There is nothing positive to write...we received the dreaded news this week about the little one we are hoping to adopt. The court date for the child was not successful which means crown wardship (permanent custody) was not granted. At this point, we are not sure why...we don't know if custody was given back to the mother or if another court date was set to fight it out in court. I don't think I ever let myself really think about the court date failing...needless to say, it was a punch in the gut when I was told. I knew I shouldn't get my hopes up but you know what...I'm still naive and believe in the "good". I just assumed in my belief that this situation would turn out "good". It didn't. I don't know what is happening now...I don't know if our chances are over or if it just means another 6-12 months of waiting. If that's what it means, can we do that? And then at the end of that waiting be devestated again? I just don't know...

It's been a difficult week. There are some other issues we are living with, dealing with and trying to sort through with our oldest, oldest son. He is back living with us. That is a HUGE change for us...we are struggling with being supportive for him and trying to hold the rest of the family together.

Well...when it rains it pours. I'm dying for a little sunshine.

Life is so unpredictable

Evan and I got home last Wednesday. Life has thrown us some curves...very sad and unnerving curves.

I will say Evan is a real trooper and is doing well! His swelling has gone down and his face is looking much, much better! He is definitely still favoring his sore hip and tonight we take the bandages off to reveal the "big scar" :-)

So as far as Evan goes...all is good...each day is getting stronger and feeling more like himself.

As for the other things life is throwing at us...we are dealing with a very sad death and some very emotional things with our oldest, oldest son. I wish I could share more details as I would love to ask for advice but right now we are trying to sort through some of the issues.

Do you ever feel like there is something "more" you should be doing but it seems so huge it doesn't seem possible? I have been feeling like this for quite awhile now. In the last few months different situations have come up that keep pointing me in a certain direction. Yet, the direction seems too impossible...how do you know when to give up everything for the "something" that might mean everything? Confused? YES, SO AM I!!

Enjoy the sun today!